I finally made the conscious decision this evening that I'm not happy with what I look like now, and the direction my life has taken - and I can do something about it.
Some where deep inside everyone gets a little self-conscious, yet some people know how to bounce back (or look like they bounce back) better than others. I am not that person. I was content for the longest time (since 2005 to be exact) that maybe I am a little lazy, I cannot run as fast as others, I'm naturally skinny (and the weight I gained does not look good on me), and at times it's alright to frown.
I was content with those realizations - and at times when I think about how hard it will be in becoming who ever I decide to be, those realizations will be a comforter. But I know for me, as determined, ambitious, and imaginative I am, these realizations will further hinder any progress I try to make.
So today I am starting this blog and promising myself that everyday I will be a better me in any way possible. I know that this will not be easy, and I have a tendency to manipulate myself out of challenges, but I will not this time.
This time I will meet and beat my challenge, because this is for me and only me. All of this benefits, completes, and helps me - and my selfish ass understands that language very well!
Well, here I go!
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